Fear is probably a strong word. I had some goals for 2012. I accomplished some. Others? Not so much.
One of my goals was to do a recorded reading of something I wrote. It seems like it would be an easy thing, right? Apparently not.
I have concerns about the whole audio thing. First and foremost, once I let something I’ve written go, I can’t bear to go back and look at it. Kind of like when actors say they don’t watch their own movies because they’ll see everything they did wrong. Yup, that’s me, only with writing instead of acting. I’m working to get past it. I know I need to if I want this writing career of mine to go anywhere.
Honestly, I should have started recording readings back no one paid any attention to what I was doing. Now, someone might actually hear it. There’s a different level of pressure.
Other issues: I don’t like the way my voice sounds on recording. It’s weird for me to hear myself.
Additionally, where the heck can I record without getting interrupted by a furnace kicking on or bickering children or Max the Cat’s singing or scratching at a door because he absolutely must be where I am if I’m in the house. I have no studio, nor do I want to rent one. I don’t want to go to someone else’s house either.
Yarg, too many factors. All year, not doing it has been so much easier. Or maybe I’m just making excuses for a fragment of me that’s still a coward. I guess the audio thing will have to go on this list of resolutions.