Fear and Dust

I have a tendency to analyze everything when it comes to the way people (including me) act and how they interact. Maybe it’s a writer thing; I don’t know.

I read an article, editorial, opinion piece? I don’t know what it was, exactly. I’m not up on my journalism lingo, but anyway, this author lady was talking about how she has been trying to get one of her books published for the last 10 years.

10. As in a decade. What’s the definition of insanity, again?

So then I started asking myself why anyone would do that. In this day and age, when authors publish their own work every day, why would anyone hold out for that long? Does she have some deep-seated need for validation?

I think the more likely motivation is fear. Even things like rejection can feel like a kind of safe-zone. If no one “accepts” the book, then she doesn’t have to set it loose into the world. She doesn’t have to make it available for the general public to read. She doesn’t have to worry about bad reviews.

I get it; I really do. But life is too short. I couldn’t imagine anyone wanting to spend so many precious moments of their life begging for approval that probably won’t ever come, at least, not the way she wants. Meanwhile, her book hasn’t done anything but gather dust.

I hope she gets past it.

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Working, Whistling, Cough-Shouting

I’m still alive, I promise. I’ve been getting a lot of work done. Work on my books, work on books by other people. It’s like a work extravaganza! I do have a brief rundown of stuff that should be out and available before the end of this year.

Desmond Winters and the Ghosts of Arbolettis – release date – approximately November, possibly December, possibly near the end of December.

Beneath Oceans of Sky – another middle-grade book – by the end of October or sooner.

Iyrico audiobook – hopefully by the end of September so I can get in on the people looking for ghost stories in October.

Destined for Darkness audiobook – Around the first part of November. I’m not actually doing this one. I have a very talented narrator on ACX working on it.

I’m cutting audio on Iyrico this evening which is one of my FAVORITE tasks (NOT). I found this lovely soundbite in which I was trying to clear my throat and what came out was this strange combination of shout and cough that sounded like a demon briefly invaded my vocal chords. I’ll save your ears, but here’s a picture of the sound levels. Normal speaking voice on the left, demon cough-shout on the right.

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The whistling part of the post title was actually a lie. I can’t whistle…like, at all.