doubt

doubt

I need to tattoo these words somewhere I can see them every day. I have a tendency to chicken out, not from writing and publishing, thank God, but some marketing activities I could be doing.

I’m delaying the kickstarter again. I’m not chickening out from that. I’m okay with the kickstarter campaign because it’s a win for me no matter the outcome, the consolation prize being free advertising.

The task I’m having trouble with is creating illustrations to go with the book. The goal is to incorporate them into the trailer and use them as marketing tools elsewhere, too.

I’ve been drawing pretty much my whole life. Despite that fact, I’ve never been one of those people who can just whip something up in 30 seconds and have it look perfect. I’ve known people like that. I admire them very much. I wish I could have that level of genius.

So, there are 4 illustrations. Each features a character or two, and those are the most difficult kinds of illustrations for me. I never seem to get them right. I’ve actually had them planned for a while. I put them down, but I can’t get them out of my head, so I pick them back up.

This weekend, I put them aside for the eleventy billionth time. My confidence wavered again. Part of the one I’ve been most focused on the most wasn’t looking as good as I would have liked. Last night, I picked it back up and through some perseverance, I improved it, and when I finished, I realized that I can do this and it can be awesome. I just need to keep going. I can’t let doubt get in the way this time. I don’t want to chicken out again.

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some rambling about editing and another illustration

I started editing the second AnnaBeth book on the iPad today. I wasn’t sure how it would go. Writing on the iPad is okay, except for the whole spellcheck weirdness the app does.

 Editing on it is like a dream come true. My previous editing process involved printing out the manuscript on paper and carrying it around with me in a binder. I would make changes on paper and then manually transfer the changes into the word document. This was by far my least favorite writing task. It’s nightmarishly tedious and there’s a high probability for error.
 With the iPad, all I have to do is make changes on the screen and then transfer it back to the laptop. Amazing. This will save me so many hours of performing a task I all but despise.
 It leaves me more time for drawing, which is good because I’ve been having this drawing fit lately.
 For about a year, I haven’t done many illustrations, probably because I was obsessing over writing. Now that I started drawing again, it’s like someone opened a floodgate.
 Here’s another illustration. This one didn’t start out as a pencil sketch, which is unusual for me. It went straight from my head into Adobe Fireworks.
This inspiration for this may have come from an Egyptian street art book I have. The colors and the geometry remind me of the artwork in that.
 Also, I’m considering setting up shop on etsy to sell some prints. If I’m going to crank out illustrations, I might as well do something with them.

stuff

Hello, lovelies! I’ve been out of the blog pretty much all this week. The husband called me out on my slacking.
What have I been doing? Well, you know…stuff. Yesterday, we waited a couple of hours in the morning for the door man to fix the back door. He showed up on time and was very polite, which is always good.

Then, we waited in traffic because we thought we would go to Carb Day, which is an Indy 500 event. We did not make it because we got there too late to see what we wanted to see. We abandoned our endeavor after about 30 minutes in traffic. Not fun, but we did see some country people chilling in lawn chairs in the back of a pickup truck drinking beer. That’s something you don’t see every day.

Today we worked in the yard, and by ‘we’, I mean we went to the store and picked up some plants so that the husband and the children could plant them. I worked on indoor chores. I don’t function well in the heat. We got some foxglove, which is a very pretty flower that is supposed to attract hummingbirds. I will post some pictures of the flowers soon if I remember.

I did finish an illustration that I’ve had in my head for some time. Here is a low res mini version. I’m mostly happy with the way it turned out. The original is much clearer, of course. It seems to be very unhappy that I shrank it down and converted it to jpg.

remix project update plus a new cover for an older book

I have to push out the date I planned to put a portion of the remix project up on the writing feedback websites. I need to read it one more time. I promise I’m not caught in a rewriting fit.

I just need to pick through it one more time to make sure there’s no jacked-uptedness. I’m shooting for beta readers and feedback websites to get the book the weekend after Thanksgiving, which is probably not the best time to expect people to read it.

I did finish a readthrough today. I like it a lot, even when I’m trying to find something wrong with it.

I’m a bit intimidated by putting the writing out for the purpose of feedback from strangers. I think anytime you solicit someone’s opinion, you have to prepare yourself for the worst.

Not all feedback is helpful. I saw this guy on a website once tell a writer that they had too many sentences that began with the letter “T”. um, what is the proper number of sentences that should begin with T? Does he count them in everything he reads? I have follow-up questions.

If I could choose one thing that could happen with the feedback that is close to being the worst, I would have to say that it would be someone pointing out an incredibly annoying writing tic that I’ve been afflicted with all along but never realized. That would be lame. but hey, I guess if I can resolve it only a few books in, then I wouldn’t be too bad off. right?

I almost forgot. I redesigned the clockwork cover the other day. Here it is in case anyone wants to see it.


I thought the other cover had too much going on. I don’t know how long it will take for the various ebook retailers to update their screens. I know amazon has it up already. I haven’t updated my website yet, but I will at some point.

fatigue and a scribble bird.

I am so very tired. The girl had a middle school function this evening – a dance recital. I’m settling in late because of that. She did a great job. She was in a couple of group dances and then had a solo one. She didn’t tell us that she had a solo beforehand because she wanted to surprise us.

I was extra proud because while all the other girls danced to electronica dance-y pop, my daughter danced to a Three Days Grace song, ie rock. That’s my baby.

I don’t have the brain power to write up a real post today. However, I do have an illustration. I got a graphics tablet (Wacom Bamboo) a couple of weeks ago. I love it. Drawing with it is a lot more natural than mouse clicking.

This was one of the first drawings I did with the tablet, just sort of playing around with it. This is a scribble bird. Michelangelo it is not, but I think it’s cute anyway.

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remix project update

I FINALLY finished the 66 page edit that took way longer than I wanted it to. What a pain in my ass. I spent 2 1/2 weeks on that beotch.

But it’s finished, and that’s what matters. I have a better idea of where I am and how to get to where I want to be and that’s always a good thing. The chore was definitely worthwhile.

So where are we? Hmmm…I extracted a few thousand unnecessary or wrong words, added some new hopefully necessary ones. I reeled in my wayward character and added a new one.

Oh, and there is illustration.

Remember the pencil sketch of the lizard lady? Here is the somewhat rough digital version. It will probably change before it reaches any sort of book cover, but this is what it looks like right now.

My original plan for the rest of the cover didn’t work out as I’d hoped it would. I still really want to use this graphic; I just need to figure out how to go from kick ass graphic to viable book cover.

I considered just putting the graphic and the title against stark white. That would be awesome in the print edition but as an online thumbnail, it would be quite horrendous. Can we say floating head? Or I could blow up the head super huge and just lay the title over it.

Hmmmm…I’ll work with it this weekend.

Word count update – 36063

I’m moseying toward the end. I’ll get there sooner or later.

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brain is tired

today I have a weird doodle. This amuses me, not sure why. I think it’s the eyes.

I have some editing pages to do this evening and I think I will go on break for a while, maybe through the weekend. All my sentences are all starting to look the same. Brain is tired. I may or may not blog.

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Hey, want some free reading? Check out the fiction freebie page on this very blog!
There you shall find links to two free ebooks on Smashwords and novel excerpts on Scribd.

Other places to find me:
http://www.LeaRyan.com/
Twitter: http://twitter.com/LeaRyan1